Ho hum, Spring has sprung and I'm saying "so what".
Yes, I admit I'm on a bit of a let down after singing a great solo which received a huge applause yesterday - but it's more than that.
I only seem to be living for the week-end while trying to figure out my "greater purpose in life". I'm way into a career that I'm not sure is best suited to me, now that I know who I am much better, and I'm wondering how it all happened. I can't afford to change careers - I feel I'm stuck. It's also hard to juggle work/life balance and live stress free because of competing priorities all around. Friends and family often think that because I'm currently single that it should be easier. It isn't easier - it's just different. The only shoulders I can truly lean on are my own; the only serious intimate dialogue I have is with myself and the only ones who often see me after a long depressing day at work are my two cats.... who really only use me as a petting machine, a feeding machine or pillow.
Aah yes, as I approach these final days of March, I believe I'm experiencing some sort of mid-life reflection, if not a crisis.
Ho hum
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